Sorry, y’all. I broke the Internet.

But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. 2 Cor. 4:7

I have a newfound respect for people who do web development.

Several people had been encouraging me to switch from Blogger over to a WordPress self-hosted site. I thought to myself, “Hey, how hard could it be?” So I grabbed a bag of Cheetos, and sat down at the computer to give it a go.

Well, turns out, I’m an idiot for even thinking that question in my head. It’s way hard. Especially when you import your old blog posts and lose all the formatting in the process. And when you work on reformatting those posts and getting everything else just right for days on end, and then suddenly none of the buttons work.

broke the internet

I think you’d be proud of me, though. I didn’t throw anything or yell or even think more than one or two bad thoughts. I calmly walked away from the computer, spoke pleasantries to my family members, got myself some more Cheetos, and then called the smartest, most tech savvy person I know.

Part of the deal is that I’m a perfectionist. Even when the computer doesn’t force me to start over, I’ll choose to redo hours of work just to fix one little imperfection. It’s a problem, I know. I want people to think, “Hey, good job, Cynthia!”

I read something on Jon Acuff’s blog awhile back that has not left me alone. He wrote, “Focus on efforts, not results. You should measure the efforts you put toward finishing something, instead of what happens when you do finish.” It sounds simple, but I’m pretty sure I have that backwards most of the time. That’s why I find myself stressing before I speak to a group. I give too much attention to the end result – I don’t want to stumble at any point; I want people to laugh at all the right times; I want people to walk away challenged and encouraged…and different.

But what God keeps reminding me over and over again is that it’s not my job to focus on the outcome; it’s His. In whatever we do in service to the Lord, the result is His to determine, not ours. We’re just called to let Him guide us and give our best effort in the process.

Whether making a presentation, writing a blog, showing houses, teaching a classroom full of kids, or whatever it is that you do, focus on being obedient, and strive to do your very best with the gifts that God has given you. Then you can relax and know that He will use those efforts to do far greater things than you could ever know to ask or even imagine…even if you broke the Internet.

Be steadfast, immovable, always excelling in the Lord’s work,knowing that your labor in the Lord is not in vain. 1 Cor. 15:58

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Susan Wells

Mother Teresa famously said, “God doesn’t call us to be successful. He calls us to be faithful.” I think about that often, as a teacher, a mother, and just a human.

Tammy Condray

This made me think about Sarah Groves’ “Remember Surrender” lyrics:
Remember surrender, remember the rest?
Remember that weight lifting off of your chest?
And realizing that it’s not up to you…and it never was.

That whole “it never was” part gets me every time. Thanks for a good post, friend 🙂

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